At one point in time... position was important to me. At one point in time... establishing a name was important to me. At one point in time... DOING was important to me. Looking back, I realize that all those things definitely made me lose my focus of Him and His priorities...and were truly my winter season. As I am now approaching the first year after the struggle of losing my little brother, my priorities in life have changed drastically. Paul...my little bro...meant the world to me, and His death was so impacting. It was the most horrible thing ever...but I realize it was not for nothing. His death forever changed my focus. What was once so very important to me... is no longer.
Over this past week...my focus has become Him, His will, and His way, and I cannot get the song, "Here In Your Presence," out of my head. It is stuck there...and I think for good reason. The lyrics are:
Found in Your hands, fullness of joy
Every fear suddenly wiped away here in Your presence
All of my gains now fade away
Every crown no longer on display, here in Your presence
Heaven is trembling in awe of Your wonders
The kings and their kingdom are standing amazed
Chorus:
Here in Your presence, we are undone
Here in Your presence, Heaven and Earth become one
Here in Your presence, all things are new
Here in Your presence, everything bows before You
Bridge:
Wonderful, beautiful, glorious, matchless in every way
Wonderful, beautiful, glorious, matchless in every way
Oh...to live in His presence. He is slowly transforming me into a Mary...and moving me away from winter as I begin to rest in His presence...and truly LIVE. The Bible says in Psalm 91:1, "He that dwells in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty." I realize now, because of Paul, that my desire...my focus... should never have been in the DOING and making a name for myself but rather in living and enjoying that life He has granted me under the shelter of His wings. ...And in my living...just that...just in my living, God is showing me that I will have more of an impact for Him than all of my DOING ever would. I don't need to make a name for myself any longer... His name is all people need to know about me.
What do people know about you? Who do they see? Are you Mary or Martha? I encourage you to choose the "better thing" as Mary did. Rest in His presence, LIVE today for today, and let Him radiate through your living!